Day 01 – Introduce yourself



Ah, I'm never sure how to write these. Well here goes..
I'm Michelle, 18 years old and a highschool student on her way to graduation. I could be described as a positive person who enjoys deep and meaningful conversations as opposed to lighthearted banter though those are fun too ^^ My interests change all the time as I'm very open to trying new things and possibly because I have a short attention span. I'm a very different person from 3 years ago though in many ways the same. I'm a romantic, and love stories and seeing mushy things make my heart flutter. The thing I'd really want to change about myself is my laziness and lack of motivation. It really kills me. I have so many goals for myself all the time, such as learning certain languages, kicking old habits, being a better friend, getting better grades but my utter laziness is the only barrier to achieving these things! I hope that I will be able to overcome this!

Well I guess I've rambled long enough.. I don't even want to read through what I've just written, such terrible English LOL.

BUT anyway, today I had quite a scare! I lost my wallet :( Went to the Morning Glory at Hurstville to buy stationery paper.. bought a ticket to Sutho, went down to platform then discovered it was missing! Like wtf, it disappeared in the space when I got my ticket and walked down to platform. O_O So anyway went home really worried and had to call the bank and RTA and police to inform (the guy on the police line had a reallllly nice voice) and was in suuch a shit mood. But luckily the school rang and told me Hurstville Police Station contacted them saying someone had turned my wallet in! GG :) I'm so glad there are still honest people in this world. THANK YOU to whoever returned it. Since embarassingly, this has happened to me more than once. I will cherish my wallet from now on :o! <33. I'm gonna skip Eco tomo (ugh essay no thanks) and get it from the station. Hopefullyyyyy all my ID is still there. *pray*

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Posted on Monday, September 13, 2010 @ 5:34 AM

30 Day Meme


I really don't want this to be another abandoned blog of mine, so I'm going to try complete this meme over the course of 30 days! ^^ Starting tomorrow.

Day 01 – Introduce yourself.
Day 02 – Your first love.
Day 03 – Your parents.
Day 04 – What you ate today.
Day 05 – Your definition of love.
Day 06 – Your day.
Day 07 – Your best friend.
Day 08 – A moment.
Day 09 – Your beliefs.
Day 10 – What you wore today.
Day 11 – Your siblings.
Day 12 – What’s in your bag.
Day 13 – This week.
Day 14 – What you wore today.
Day 15 – Your dreams.
Day 16 – Your first kiss.
Day 17 – Your favorite memory.
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday.
Day 19 – Something you regret.
Day 20 – This month.
Day 21 – Another moment.
Day 22 – Something that upsets you.
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better.
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry.
Day 25 – A first.
Day 26 – Your fears.
Day 27 – Your favorite place.
Day 28 – Something that you miss.
Day 29 – Your aspirations.
Day 30 – One last moment.

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Posted on Sunday, September 12, 2010 @ 12:35 AM

HAIRCUT
So I planned to go uts today but instead walked all over the city into fob stores and trying crane machines (i really wanted this giant rilakkuma bear) and got a drastic haircut! it was at a korean hairdresser near town hall ^^ i bought in a photo of nicole from kara and they cut it exactly .. even though i wanted it shoulder length and not near my chin line.. >< that pic i posted a few weeks ago was sooo right! i really miss my old hair now lolol. even though it felt like straw. xD and have to blow dry it everyday if i want ends to curve inwards and not look like a nest LOL so i'll just tye up it for school meh.


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Posted on Saturday, August 28, 2010 @ 5:07 AM


Today I saw an ad seeking recruitments to join the defence force for Australia. I've seen them many times before but for some reason I actually thought it would be pretty cool to join. In our society I think it's so easy for us be thankful for all the comforts we already have in life, things we take for granted such as the safety of our lives and having all our needs provided for us. Being in an environment, that is in the army, and not being certain about what events or dangers each day will bring and being exposed to the sheer mortal nature of life would really be eye opening and an enriching growing experience. Maybe that's just me though. I probably wouldn't survive a day out there and khaki isn't really my colour anyway. Maybe a Battle Royale situation at my school would put things in perspective...
& RIP to those brave Australian soldiers who have passed away this week.. my prayers are with your families.

Rice Rally was good. Steve Chong's message was a great reminder for me about how inherently sinful we are in nature and that the world is dying because of our sin. He likened it to the recent oil spill and showed a distressing photo of a pelican trapped in the oil. The only difference between us humans and that pelican? The oil represents sin and we are splashing around with joy and swimming in it. Another thing which struck out to me was about forgiveness. It doesn't cost the offender anything at all to be forgiven but it does cost the person who has to forgive. They have to swallow their hurt, pain and anger and give that person another chance. This is exactly what Jesus did for us, except it cost him his life as he was nailed to the Cross. I have to say, this always moves me as it really is hard to comprehend this level of sacrifice and unconditional love as it is so rare in the world we live in today. What's more, we did not ask for this forgiveness and God chose to give us a chance to start a relationship with him so that we may spend eternity with him through his amazing grace.
On a more shallow note, there were quite a lot of cute fob guys there last night.

Yay I don't suck balls at bowling but my thumb felt like it was internally bleeding for two days :(

Posted on Sunday, August 22, 2010 @ 3:07 AM


When do you know when to stop forgiving someone? Frankly, I've given you so many chances and each time I hoped you would change but I think I'm about ready to give up on you for good. But behind this conviction, a little voice in my head wonders what if this time you will change, and everything will be alright again?

School is becoming tiring and draining again. The first few days were good, now I'm back to wishing it would end soon. Pretty sure I'll be regretting having these thoughts come last week of school. Low hopes for trivia night. Costumes are a pain to organise and only people likely to have fun on the night are certain groups which are friendly with the techies. Maybe if there was a decent cute Tech who wasnt a nerd, alco or gangster I'd be looking forward to going and I'm prety sick of the whole teen hormone filled atmosphere. Not that I've experienced much. Methinks its time for me to look for a cottage and knitting needles.

@#$%. Siwon from Suju is striking pretty close to what my ideal hubby would be. Tall, cute, sincere, smart, compassionate, athletic and beautiful voice. Though I found a pretty disturbing photo of him wearing pink short shorts and winking at the camera. LOL

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Posted on Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 12:35 AM

What a difference a day makes.

Posted on Saturday, August 14, 2010 @ 7:18 AM



I'll be the first person to admit that I kinda miss the rush and panic that came with the trials. I've finally arrived at the long anticipated light at the end of the tunnel but to be honest, it's just as dark out here as in the tunnel. At least I didn't have so much time to think back there.

I hate those days when you lose hope in everything and everything in the world doesn't seem right. When you can see all your imperfections and how fucked up you are, and how fucked up the world is. I'm really not sure whether these moments are when your mind is being polluted by your depression, or as if the veil of self deluded optimism has been lifted. If I want to think about this positively, it's all a matter of perception and the world can be as rosy as far as I'm willing it to be. Or is it? These past few years have really jaded me about the motivations of people and how nasty and cruel humanity can be. Including me. I've realised that self gratification and self gain is the motivation behind every action. My dabble in Christianity the past year has given me insight into why humans are like this and the need for faith in Jesus Christ to point us back to God so that we may be saved. I think faith gives me hope, but the religion has turned me away. The churches talk up Christianity to amazing heights and while I did seem to experience moments of complete spirituality sometimes it seems like self delusion. Telling myself that there was someone out there who had planned everything and was looking after me. Someone who loved me unconditionally. I think everyone looks for these things, love which is perfect and unconditional but.. does it exist? Or did I try to convince myself it did?
Don't take friends for granted. Don't think that because it has friends has anything to do with your charm and good character. What if, they're just friends with you because it's their good nature and easy willingness to befriend anyone. This thought struck me the other day because in all honesty I have no idea why I have even a single friend in this world. I've been a little slack with all my relationships as of late and not working hard for them. Why should I expect people to like me and want to spend time with me if I don't show any sign that I appreciate times spent together? At the same time, some people annoy the shit out of me sometimes and I just can't be bothered to make amends or attempt at reviving the past relationship.
I keep putting things off. I'll always convince myself tomorrow is another day. But what I need is to start NOW. Start changing my character, stop being the size of a blue whale, learn new skills and try and build some sort of social circle. Hopefully by writing this down, I'll do something about it. :P

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Posted on Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 7:18 PM


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